the poetry of earth is never dead

this is me avoiding packing, just in case anyone was wondering. i'm starting to get excited. this is all so crazy. we all have to go start out lives and everthing is going to be different. i'm really ready for different. i feel like i've been hibernating since justin and i broke up and i don't want to anymore. not just in the relationship way. i've been hiding out in my paintings, which is a really nice place to hide but i miss people.

i have to go bite the bullet. i leave monday morning and i'm on half-ish packed. i hope i don't forget anything important.

i'm moving in two and half weeks. kind of scared, kind of excited. my dad sold our house yesterday. nothing is the same. i'm not sad or anything it's just a weird feeling. i mean i'm kind of homeless. i'll come back for thanksgiving and i'll be in a house i've never lived in. if he doesn't get the house we want it could be a house i've never even seen.
my tattoo will be done next week.
i need some of those little elves from that story about the cobbler to send over their sewing couter parts to finish all of the projects i need for school.

quilting is grand and math placement tests need to die... in case anyone was wondering.

more tattoo tomorrow and colorado friday!

went camping with nick and craig and lindsey and jake. it was great fun. word of advice to anyone thinking of camping: bring soap, paper towels and mats to sleep on.

colleges should not make people take math placement tests. it's not nice.

graduation is saturday. that's so hard to believe. it's one of those things that you think about but always seems like it will never happen and now it is. colorado is one of those things but i don't think it feels really real yet. maybe after i sign up for classes it will, which is soon.

more tattooing on sunday i hope.

my tattoo is peeling. not cute. i feel like it's coming off. i know that is impossible but i still feel that way. the veins on the leaves are so light that i'm afraid once it heals they will be gone. i knew the branches would lighten a lot but my thorns are a lot lighter too. ! i'm so excited to finish it though. even though i'm kind of freaked out i really love it. i don't know why but i can understand the tattoo addiction thing. i mean it hurts but there is just something interesting to me about the process...

tattoo in about two and a half hours!

so i went back to the place and talked to aaron(the guy doing my tattoo). it is going to be amazing buy it keeps getting more detailed which means more money and more time for me to be drawn on with needles but oh well. i'm so excited. if you google frida kahlo paintings you'll find the sun of life (i think that's what it's called). the leaf on that with the veins growing from it is what my leaves will look like.yay! but i might not be able to get it next weekend because the drawing might not be done, sad.

let the official tattoo count down begin: 9 days. i'm going in on saturday to give the guy my pictures of want i want and so he can trace my foot and then i have to wait a week to go back and then i will have leaves on my foot forever, frida kahlo leaves no less. EXCITED!

i haven't posted anything in so long because my life is boring. school needs to be over. so does work.

i officially hate "regular girls" as jess and i call them. they walk around tanned and bleached beyond recognition talking about "oh my god did you see american idol last night" and "have you seen the new justin video. it's so hot". i can't take it. stupid isn't cute, someone should tell them. they should be locked in a room with books (after someone tells them what a book is and that you don't have to be taking a class to open one) and left in there with bread and water until all the stupid is gone. and no more shirts that have the words "american eagle", "hollister", or "abercrombie and fitch" plastered on them. and somehow they should have their memories erased and be given books with different philosophies in them so they actually have to decide something for themselves. irritation!

i love my back pack. i was carrying around 25 pounds and it felt like nothing. once i got the straps adjusted it was so comfortable. i want to go camping right now.

i started putting together my center tile for my mosaic with a transparency of the life cycle of a conifer, antique botanical drawings, and tin foil. i can't wait to get started. buying glass is pretty much the best thing ever.

and jessica needs to not be mad at aaron and i for her birthday thing. all is not lost. we will come through so don't stress about it. we still have a while.

joann is of the devil. so pissed! how is it that you can work somewhere for two years, be one of the best employees they have, and they just shit on you. someone needs to explain that to me because i don't get it. i'm so done.